Scene 2

Finally Jaden reached that crossway. There were two large banyan tree on the crossway. He stoped there lost in thoughts directing his mind into past. He can still see Jaden and Sofie written on one of the banyan tree. Jden's eyes became numb and a pair drop of tear fell on his nose from his eye. He was stuck and his whole body was numb as if he want to fight against time. He wented to go more close to that tree in subconsious hope that he still can feel warmth of her in this cold blowing wind. His memory streched his awareness 2 years back..
"Look at this huge tree, Jaden"
"What is special in this, said Jaden" Looking into sofie's brown eyes.
She replied "It's so old scary and beautiful at the same time, I think it has been standing here for atleast 120 years,It would have seen so many things so many lifes,many misterious would be hidden in it".
Jaden noded his head looking into sofie's eyes.
He took a sharp stone and forced on bankyan truck wirting sofie and then jaden like a teenager boy who wants to see himself with the girl he likes at every places and at every time. And it was perfect afterall they had just finished their graduation a year back.
Sofie came near to him speechless and held his hand.
Janet was speechless too looking in her eyes as if they both were communicating through eyelids. Janet moved two steps ahead in response Sofie moved back as if she was not sure. Further there was no place to move back more as she her back was touching trunk of tree, Janet moved closer his face was so close to her that he could feel warmth of her breath. He was holding her palms gently and softer. Time had stopped for them as if they were cut of all other senses and lost in the moment. Looking in sofie's eyes who just closed Janet moved his lips more near to her.
Suddenly noise chirping of birds flying at a distance entered his ears pulling attension of his mind to present.
He wiped out his tears turned right to follow the crossway road as if there is much more distance he has to follow.

"Scene 1."

And he was walking across that dark valley. Fresh cold winter breeze was enough to to make his skin cold giving a sensation of chillness in mind.
Lost in thousands of thoughts He was looking at the uphill of mountain densed by forest. His face was shining with the white moonlight getting reflected from his face. Wearing faded jeans with blue shirt he looked like a part of sky is walking on the earth. With his slim and tall body he was reaching towards the cross way of the road which was linked with other road going to the uphills.His sharp lips were silent and above his pointed nose there was a strange expression in his big eyes. Like the eyes are lost somehwre and helping the mind to understand something.
In that silent valley of rare populated area Jaiden was moving to the crossway with large steps but slow speed.

Internal Carasoul....!!!

So yes I am centered at the focus of thoughts,
And the awareness is oscillating to and fro on the dimension of time,
Oscillating and touching thousands of thoughts in both directions,
Peace is just an imagination or a mirage illusion.

Illusion of life illusion of reality,
Illusion of liberation of soul,
Wisdom seems like taking last breath,
And breath forcing itself to enter into body of wisdom.

No lightness, no darkness just stillness,
Stillness of eternity,
Surrounded and rotated and forced by thoughts,
Thoughts of compulsion, of being betrayed.

Hardness with loose functioning of mind,
Limited into boundaries of human capacity,
Forcing myself to the extreme of self will,
Leaving and surrendering to existence.

Surrendering the life, the emotions and struggles,
So hold my Hand ohh..existence..and fulfill your desire,
As everything is still and calm into you,
Circle never rotates for you..!!!

Let there be Peace......!!!

Love Letter- Hey Love

Hey Love,

I am feeling glimpses of beauty and happiness of eternity while writing to you.
Don't know when were we separated may be at the begging of time. But I can still feel the the separation flowing through aura of conciousness. And even knowing that the separation is just illusion and in depth we are still connected. I can just feel that separation through the emptiness wavering inside
my soul. But still I have smile on my lips ..the eternal me still can feel the existence of your soul sear me. May that is why, on physical level I have desire
a cosmic desire to get merged with you and get one or complete or as it was just oneness.
Oh Love..is it me or you all over spreaded in all dimensions which I can image and which I can imagine not. I can feel the movment of our conciousness flowing on the river of time together. And it's so close that sometimes I even have dout that is there just me.
And I am assure that the time will also rich a point where once again all will get united I will again become a part of Your existence or saying a part could be wrong again oneness would be riched. It's misterious that sometimes I am saying I am separate and sometimes oneness. May be it's cause of something unknown which unknown as thoughts,mind, or few impurities in conciousnes or somewhere in existence. And I even know that there is no impurity cause there is no place to be how could is it possible since you are spreaded everywhere in this vast cosmos.
And it's a long time to see you a long journey of pain, greed, happiness, sadness, tears of happiness, tears of sadness, getting and feeling glimpses of your existence in moments , feeling like spring brigde, feeling like intense sunlight in winter. Those moments explain to myself I am still connected with you in deeper part of existence. And provides me warm sensation of peace of blissfulness.
I am sorry for the mistakes that I did knowingly and unknowingly. Mistake like
you are you are so shining and in attraction I said you that I want you and that also seems ugly to me is't that enslaving the beauty and insulting it. But on the other hand I even knew you can't be enslaved as it's your aura only making me free providing me liberty.
There are so many things to say again an attempt to capture unexplanable thing in the boundary of words.I want to say I love you and together I also don't like that sentence cause it uses " YOU" and using you for you again gives me a feeling of separation. And I have felt in glimpses it's neither you nor me it's just oneness. No separation no divition just unification or just an exitential truth of oneness. Miss you cause there is illusion of separation. Love You cause there is to be unification.
With lots of love. In Loveliness.

Thought.....2

Have you felt the storm,
starting from body entering to soul,
surronded in mist of thoughts,
thoughts loving and reppeling the storms

One side wants to hold
Other side struggling to push
A thought of mistry,
Streching the soul, pulling the conciousness.

A thought of beauty
Have you thought of desire to hold beauty,
Cause just by holding it,
Beauty is lost,ruined enslaved.

A thought to become master,
which at end results in slave,
A thought to win
Without knowing that it's lost the momet you desired to win.

Thought itself lost in struggle,
Weekening the soul and strengthing the mind,
Creating a division in one entity
Ruling the kingdom of division

But the thought in a direction,
Even after streching the eternity,
Saving the freedom,
Saving the beauty..!!!

Just as it is

And the showering of pain in mind,
With thunders of desires,
Wheeling the subconsciousness
And reflecting the eternity inside soul..

Darkness surrounding the eyes,
Narrowing the focus in a thin line,
Oh at the moment mind sees,
merging of all dimensions in one.

Desires forcing in one direction,
At the other mind is opposing them,
Division of mind in different parts
They are integrating the darkness..

Darkness which is ultimate
which ever was and will be
so near to eyes,
Horrifying and thundering the soul

Let me wake up from this dream,
to feel the light on my skin,
And let me merge my consciousnesses,
In the depth of your soul to feel to free me from myself...!!!

Loosing Pain..!!

A thunder crawling in the body,
Passing by the nerves of mind,
Giving a fine sensation of pain,
Spreading coldness to the heart.

Light which was friend of me
Now seems like getting merged with darkness,
Ears are thirsty to hear a voice
But it’s just shouting of silence.

A feel entering in my nerve,
Steadily slowly steadily slowly,
Making my body numb,
Lossing the sensation of my senses.

Time between two Rings..!!

There was a small break between two rings love
I saw the time freezed in that time,
Heart beat stoped and breath freezed,
Stillness entered in life and there was exitment a little happines of hope.

I saw the mind focused on one point,
At that time the thoughts got focused at one place,
I was just ready to hear the voice and reply,
Next moment I got other ring with same waiting

I love that silence between 2 rings,
That brings hope to focus on your voice
Oh the time betwen those rings,
It's like the soul is going to meet God.

It's like conciousness going to get mergd with cosmic conciousnes,
Leaving every sphere and aspect of cosmos,
Meeting the unsepared part again,
In joy,peace ,silence and blissfulnes.

The small moment sometimes show us the reality,
Reality that was ever and will be,
A pain of division and a desire of multiplication and merging
Oh that small moment sometimes shows whole cosmos.

Thougts

When my eyes are closed,
They are fighting with me,
My thoughs have become my enemy.

Stop banging my mind,
with the sweetness of memory,
The lovely thouhts the ugly thougts,
I am tired,betrayed..let me be in peace.

I want to sleep,
Don't shout in my mind,
My nerves are week now,
My heart is evacuate.

Tell me a way to make things fine,
Help me give me your hand and raise me,
I am falling deeper and deeper in conciousnes,
Damn these thouts are shouting and crying, disturbing.

Tell me the mistake,
and show me atleast one way to hear your heart,
Treat me like human with heart and soul,
Send peace for me..i am scared thouts are killing me.

Help me fighting alone with them,
Stand near lets defeat it,
Do something they are becoming tumour in brain,
Smile and show me before they win.

You are the winner,
Don't let me loose too,
I can't see direction to walk,
thots oh..they are crawling in body.

From mind to feet,
They are hitting heart,
Banging my soul,
Sqeezing my peace.

Separating me fro myself,
In two three or hundread,
Is it the end or begenning,
Of a life without light.

If it's a curse by you,
I do accept this too,
Cause it's yours,
Atleast smile now for acceptence.


Thougts,thougs,thougts..killing me every moment...!!

Tears..!!

Fallen into ocean of tears,
Can You hold me and support,
to raise and give strength to soul,
Can You again touch my lips to shine the eyes.

The world is running by me faster,
And my body is numb at the centre,
Focused on the sky,
like searching your image on clouds.

Show me again the gentle smile on your face,
and you had promise never to cry,
so smile for the moments we had,
when the soul was more stronger the body.

always come in my dreams...!!

Darknes..!!

Night horrorfull night,
Ready to eat all the light,
So much dark inside and outside,
It's just a life without light..

Where are the eyes now,
to show the light to my eyes,
where is that touch,
to give warmth to my skin

All the stars and sun disappeared with you,
The concoisness inside me,
Seems like disappearing,
Focused on one point.

Small light surounded by vast dakness,
It's so lonely night,
Look into my soul,
It's so dark now.

Don't call me in the loneliness of night,
memory of your voice makes me cry,
I am ready to burn my heart,
scared even that will not provide light.

With vibrating lips and raining eyes....!!

Wish you were here..

And wish You were here
In the darkness of night
In the brightness of light
Wish You were here

In valley between moutains
with the glitter of moonligh
with the cold wind touching the skin
and the moon shying looking into your eyes

In great silence of eternity
when the soul looking for it's destiny
In th darkness of sound
wish you were here..
to whisper in my ears..

In the coldness where lips are vibrating
and hands are numb
and the life seems like death
wish you were there
to hold the hand and give warmth

In deep darkness of dream
where light never enters
where it's just shadow of darkness,
wish you were there
to show me light from your eyes.

There is no sense of smell
like nature stoped creating smell
just breath but no smell
wish you were there
to kiss my lips n give the fragrance of your breath

wish you were here
where the mind stop thinkin
and no imagination works
and life is running meaningless
to show me beauty of your face
wish you were there

And now I am closing my eyes
in deep silence
with the glimpse of coldness over my skin
ohh..you are here..
a part of my eternity..
and it's shining like many sun.......................