Thursday, August 8, 2013

Dhadkta Dil !!!

wo awaj jo ab khamosh hai kisi saaye mei..
Meri ruh ki cheekh ustak ab pahunchti nahi..
wo rangin khwabon ki raat..wo chamakte cheeragon ki baat..
jalte to bahot hai dil..par roshni ab hoti nahi..

kisi shaam ki yaad ka dastak dena..
chamakte sitaro ka roushan hona..
sitare ab bhi aasma mei hai  magar..
kisi chand ki roshni ab pahunchti nahi..

najare humne bhi dekhe jamane ke..
kisi khwab mei bikhre huwe sitaron ke..
dhadkta to dil hai ab bhi lekin..
Roushan noor ab ruh ko karti nahi..

ssgm

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Chala chal tu chala chal tu chala chal tu

Dil mei jawaland jwala..
Bujhne na de..
Dharti ke dhool se asman ke taron tak..
Badlon ko cheerta chalta chal tu..
chala chal tu chala chal tu chala chal tu

Nirasha ke vicharon se..
Asha ki umeedon tak..
kahin ruk na tu..
kahin thak na tu..
Marq mei aye rukawaton se seekhta chal tu..
chala chal tu chala chal tu chala chal tu

Tere kadam ruke nahi..
Tera sheesh jhuke nahi..
Dil ke jwalant tufaan se..
Jag ko jagata chal tu..
chala chal tu chala chal tu chala chal tu

Jivan aur mrityun se dur..
vicharon ke sansar se dur..
Us adhrishya ko mahsoos kar..
Tujhme samati shristi ka..
Tanik bhi sandeh na kar tu..
chala chal tu chala chal tu chala chal tu

Monday, July 22, 2013

Candy Crush Saga Poem - Facebook Game

The blue candy, the green candy..
Sitting in a row near yellow candy..
Jelly is surrounded by the chocolate..
Oh send me extra move before it gets to late..

Pair of three is not working anymore..
Pair of four is invisible at edge or core..
Same level is making me bore..
Request for extra life will now knock someone's door..

That damn recipe sticks at top..
Without sweet there is no chance for it's hop..
That Jelly is wasting my move..
A pair of candy can make it poof..

ohh my candy spreaded everywhere..
It reshuffles when i see no moves anywhere..
ohh candy you are wasting my time..
I wanna make you all mine..

Long way is still left with you..
Lemonade I still remember I struggled with you..
Chocolate mountain does't gives me clue..
I just need a candy which is blue..

Surprised ..I will be if see candy which is white..
Friends please give me some extra life..!!!



For my Candy Crush Saga Friends....

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Mother India !!!

 And the mother was crying got beaten by her own children. Scars and deep wounds could now be seen clearly..the red blood was now flowing through the wound..she was moaning still trying to hide her pain ..she was crying remembering her past ..remembering her those kids who loved her and who died for her long time back..Now her own kids have started gaining profit from her milk..selling it corrupting it..leaving her alone steadily in the dark night. She again wants to stand ..she again wants to shout ..but at next moment she fells down every-time she tries to attempt..Lost in the hope that if someone could hear  if someone could hear not the voice but the pain that she gets on every hit on every wound on every torture..She looks around and finds a crowd, a crowd of her own children planning to sell the pieces of her body. She wants to close the eyes looking at this and suddenly a drop of tear fells down to her lips with murmuring moan "I am your only..why you want to sell me". "Look I have everything to fulfill your desires..then why this madness". Suddenly one of the child looks at her face and shouts laughingly.."how much will that tear costs" and stops laughingly.
The Mother face was now black like coal, spectrum of waves were harder to reach her ears, she was looking at them the children who really does't deserve to be children and they were getting transmuted from man-eaters to soul-eaters. Far away from them there was row of other children who could feel the pain but that was just a crowd of scared lambs. Living and thinking in their own way ready to get changed like front sons..like waiting for opportunity. 
The sun was now invisible outside just leaving a small light a small hope of morning but with a scared feeling a scared thought of dark night that could inhale complete life. 
Eyes were getting closed with the sharp memory of past ..the memory when she had a child with the power of tiger, love towards her like that of own soul, faith like a heart ..and affection like sense. Oh he loved, he cared and yes he had also breathed last breath on her womb. This thought makes her weaker..she collects her energy again and wants to tell and shout.." I know you have desires..bigger desires..Look at me help me..let me breath ..trust me have faith on me..and I am so much capable that your current desires will be less would be negligible I will give you so much. Trust me Love me and I will show you the capability beyond your imagination.But I can't as I am not different from you..you are part of me ..my own body." "Every time you sell me ...you sell yourself and that is more pity" But her desire to shout stops in next moment with a thunder of subconscious storm...one of her child had thrown a black coal on her breast making her loose awareness.  She could not resist the hurt and went unconscious as she was already weak ..she was not even getting fodder to eat now. Empty stomach hurts..torture...the light was going far from her eyes..in a small hope of morning..in a small hope of support..in a small hope of sunlight..in small hope that she still has children somewhere searching for her to raise her to help her to lift her to free her..so that she can again shine like gold ..with a new thought with new energy..same glitter that she had...yes she was hoping same glitter but with new thought with new colors.
The sun was on horizon now..stars started appearing..light from her eyes started disappearing bringing her in subconscious sleep..the small hope was still there..a small light from millions of stars is still there.......

Friday, July 5, 2013

Unforgettable : Before End..Before Absolute

I can remember yes I can remember, just few moments back before this darkness. I was standing beneath that blue sky and whole existence was blue. Blue before the darkness arises to hold and cuddle everything that could ever existed. Just the soul can survive standing alone surrounded in sky blue light ready to drown and melt into darkness.
The feeling of separation from illusion is surrounding the soul in that existence. What is this illusion, this existence , love just mere a fake cover got covered in the form of all these illusions. What is and what was the wish of that search. Was't that search of life a search of love..a search of destruction. A place where there is just search of you, where it's just you surrounding existence, where the desire begins from you and the hope dies to you ..yeh there only, the life starts and ends at you.
The desire of creation leading continuously towards destruction ..changing faith into faithlessness every-time. Yeh it's the same place surrounding in this blue dim light. Just a moment, got silenced after so much crowd and ready to jump in darkness at other moment. Just a moment where desire suffers and at same time desire occurs wearing a cover of hope. A hope that there will again be light there will again be crowd after darkness that yet has to come. Just a point which is the reason of creation. A point due to which soul is stuck in infinite loop of creation and destruction. Playing with it's own illusion.


The blue ray is passing through the soul, expanding the limits of soul to in
finite. Sound of destruction of memory is echoing in the surrounding. A never stopping search getting reflected from the buried grave of existence. Existence which was nothing more than illusion is now getting faded and merging in truth ..blue light getting faded and merging in darkness..whatever remains getting merged with dark truth. Yeh truth is dark cause truth has no color. Absolute truth when nude is just dark..dark like nothing.Nothing at all. Just a sense of isness. Just a sense which is purest of soul. The purest of soul removing all it's cloths.. cloths of illusion..surrounded by itself..in a small point ..in a small point of infinite.
A huge crowd just a moment before is silenced and all the dimensions got curved, entangled in an infinite small point.
Time too has stoped in the echo of remnant of dim blue light of life. Search of life still has not stoped, the ending desire still searching for the hopes of past.
Just a small gap in time and everything got inhaled in darkness, a time where soul is standing now. With small sense ...the smallest desire of creation of existence of illusion..an illusion which has to start after darkness. And then it's just absolute dark..absolute truth ..just purest of soul..smallest desire of creation somewhere standing at the edge of darkness. The beginning of journey ends or starts..it's the same point ..a point in time containing both points of start and end. Just a small sense of soul, the truth and.......!!!

ss-gm

Thursday, June 27, 2013

A million drops of silence!!!

A million drops of silence..
Whispers of promises now crying and dying..
Creating conflicts inside resulting in pain.
Making and breaking heart throwing soul to drain..

A million drops of silent violence..
Showering from the eyes..
Melting the heart, hurting the soul..
Leaving destiny far and alone..

A million drops of dark silence..
Flowing from the eyes..
Drying the memories insight..
Crawling the death inside..

ss-gm

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Ignorence!!!

Have you ever done this..
Watching someone's online status..
Not writing cause of scared feeling...
Your one word is enough to make someone invisible for you..

Just smiling with the pain hidden inside deeper..
A wish to communicate sooner or later..
New hopes burning and dying..
Like a new baby searching care and crying..

Oh just look inside your mind..
Search something inside..
Your silent silence is drowning
Your memory somewhere in me crying....

ss-gwgw

Mei Tumse Pyar Karta Hun-2

Un siskati ret pe karahati aahaton ki tarah...
Mere najdeek aa jindagi unki yaadon ki tarah..
Mujhse khamosh na ho ..
Aur aa kar de ujale apne nigaho ki tarah...
Teri tasveer ko meri takdeer na bana..
Kar de ujale roushan meri rooh ..
Tere labon pe timtimate aandhi ki tarah..
Aur tujh bin na hai mere dil mei kuch hi..
Warna simat jaaonga mei bhi kisi khamosh andhi ki tarah...!!!

gwgw

Mei Tumse Pyar Karta Hun !!!

Kisi ki yaad..
kuch bite lamho ki kamoshi..
kisi ke hansne rone ki awajon ka dastak dena..
Aur mere dil se hote huwe meri ruh tak gujarna..
Un ankho ko dekhte huwe mera khamosh hona..
Aur fir unske najdeek jaane ki chahat..
wo shor ki yaad jo ab dil mei dafan hai khamoshi banke..
Ek umeed ka diya jo bojhta sa dikhta hai..
Aur meri awaj ko khamosh kiye deta hai..
Ae kaash kuch aisa ho jaye..Ae kaash kuch waisa ho jaaye..
uski nigahei much pe fir pad jaaye..
ohhh uski yaadon mujhko na rulao..
mujhe us samay ki ret pe waapis le jaao..
jahan fir se mei muskra ke uska didar kar sakon..
jahan mei usko fir se pyar kar sako..
jahan wo mujhe dekhe aur mei unko..
aur wahin jahan fir se jindagi ka iqraar kar sakon...!!!

gwgw

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Today at Heart..!!!

AAJ DIL PE KOI ..............gwgw

Today I can't fight my heart..
I was going to smile but suddenly cried..
Like always I tried to hide the pain but suddenly cried..

Now what should I say..what happened to me..
You are unaware, I am unknown too..
Just know this, and it's enough..
I also have heart I am also human..
I was trying to search some excuse to smile but suddenly cried..

There is't so many stars in sky that everyone gets one..
There are also turbulence for ships..
Is it necessary everyone reaches to beach..
Just thinking that I was going ahead to be drown but suddenly cried..

I wish i cry like this whole life..
cause today i came to know this..
there is no value of smiling..
and I am known cause of tears only..
Just like clouds without raining..
I was moving on but suddenly cried..


ssgm

Monday, May 27, 2013

Shadow!!!

Sometimes in sky cloud appears and then there is shadow..
But then it Rains and again sky is clear..
Then silence captures deeper ..
And the shadow enters near and closer..

The deserted heart shows mirage of life..

Thunder crawls deeper inside..
Yesterday where there was light..
Today cloud made it dark night..

Feel if you can sense the desire of expression..
Listen if you can hear fate of destruction..
Don't be silent and tell.
Is't it same your own expression..

Dig inside yesterday and look..
Is't it same condition..
That you cried and I am crying..
For that only reason!!!


Friday, April 19, 2013

Hopes in Eyes


And my eyes are still waiting..
For the thundering of your light..
When it's surrounded by rain both sides.
In monsoon to look deeper in your eyes..

Now wisdom says that you don't remember,
When mind says you do remember,
The moment of time buried inside,
Deeper in heart surrounded by light..

A fake hope passes by,
Travelling on wheels of life,
Making mind itself to fight,
Leaving eyes alone whole night..

ssgm

Thursday, April 11, 2013

You think you can feel?

So you think you can tell..
So you think you can feel..
When the storm is passing by here..
Silence on lips capturing there..

So you think you can feel..
The desire of ear..
To get sound from there..
When hopes are dying here..

So you think you can feel..
Eyes raining closer near..
When eyes are closed there..
And darkness is surrounded here..

So you think you can feel..
Chillness  inside skin far from flare..
When storm is entering deeper here..
And sun is glittering, shining there..

So you think you can feel..
Final kiss for soul's care..
When lips are silent here..
And eyes are closed there..

So you think you can feel..
The thoughts of feel..
When thoughts are dying here..
And thoughts are stopping there..

So You think You can feel??



ss-gm

Thursday, April 4, 2013

This Night..Tonight !!!


The sound of breeze in dark night
Melting ears..passing by eyes..
Touching skin.. making it white..
Shouting silence whole night..!!!

Dark cloud surrounding everywhere
Above and in front thundering outside..inside..
white memories circling , wandering mind..
Making breaking causing thoughts to collide..!!!

Holding of desires deeper and stronger..
Still waiting for the past to light..
Ending finishing hope and more hopes..
Inhaling existence and moments from inside tonight...!!!


Saturday, March 30, 2013

Hope !!!

And the hope shining...above the grave dark memories..
A little glimpse of hope..entangled with desire..
Desire to look at the moments back..
Desire to reverse time and then stop..
To hold the gone smiles in lonely space..
Mind questioning mind using threads of thought..
And attempting itself for peace..
Every attempt resulting in more noise..
What is the origin and fate of that memory..
What is the reason beyond it's limitation..
Is it real or skeptic in nature..
Ohh it feels so real..
It suffers pain and itself is creator too..
Suffers love, loneliness, and thoughts crawling in itself..
Ohh mind you are creator and destructor..
If creation resulting into pain..
Then destruct ..result into the fate of thoughts of memories..
Let vanish the crawling pain..moving inside ..deepening the soul..
Destroy it..Finish it..Result in self Destruction..
Get fanatic and enjoy the peace of fate..
Thoughtless with just shining light...!!!

Friday, January 18, 2013

aaj dil dukha...gwgw

Απόψε η καρδιά μου πονάει,
επειδή σε θυμάμαι.
Οι άνθρωποι τριγύρω είναι ξένοι
κι εγώ δεν έχω βρει τον δικό μου.
Δεν μπορώ να κοιμηθώ,
νοιώθω εξαντλημένος,
έτσι είναι οι μέρες μου,
έτσι είναι οι νύχτες μου.
Η αναπνοή μου δεν έχει πνοή,

Τα βράδια είναι ατέλειωτα,
ρίχνοντας το πέπλο τους πάνω σου,
αφήνοντάς σε πάντα εδώ,
Καθόλου απόσταση μεταξύ μας,
Καθόλου χωρισμός.
Δεν μπορώ να κοιμηθώ,
νοιώθω εξαντλημένος,
έτσι είναι οι μέρες μου,
έτσι είναι οι νύχτες μου.
Η αναπνοή μου δεν έχει πνοή,
Αν σε συναντήσω,
τότε θα πιστέψω.
Τότε θα γελάσω.
Δεν θα κλάψω ξανά.

Monday, December 17, 2012

A Sharp whisper in Cold winter...!!!

The cold breeze was moving again in the icy month of December. The soul was surrounded by heart and heart itself surrounded by body ..a river of thoughts were moving above in mind. A communication or mis communication , the body was standing across the river side getting shower in chill moonlight. With  eyes focused below inside river , he was able to hear a Sharp whisper in cold winter. A whisper of past which was now nowhere, but still was enough to prove that it was somewhere on the dimension of time. The mind
was using logic's and ready to suppress heart, using millions of weapons .weapons of thoughts..alone heart which was fighting alone .really just to protect the soul it contained.
And You can feel that, that You never thought in that moment, a sharp flash occurs in mind which brings you again at same point where you were just smiling. But this time when heart is struggling that smile does't comes alone. It brings a pair of tear in those enlightened eyes. Still searching something in the reflection of moonlight travelling back from the river of mind. That logic tries again and enforces more to repress the thoughts .thoughts which itself is a part of mind..mind now fights back to mind ..trying to finish itself, but minds nature is just like ..the more it fights ..the more it strengthens itself and that poor heart could't do anything..it just beats faster and more faster.
The cold breeze was making body numb..and this first moment heart spoke ..no fight no struggle..sending a message to mind..a message just to watch ..the heart was now audible to mind as well as to heart. It was like a link getting created a link starting from soul to heart till mind and further crossing the boundaries of countries and continent getting completed at other end. Yes it's ok the past was happier but the present just became mysterious with more place to search and explorer. Desire that resides in mind ..and could be felt from heart. Yes the cold breeze was still moving now on the upper part of skin..with it's cold sensation now touching the veins of heart , trying to squeeze it. Moon was still standing at same place. At same moment other breeze came more colder more faster and in the moonlight the body was still standing. Moon which was reflecting the sun at east positioning towards west must also be showering same light in vast existence from the land of sun till the home of Minerva, Athena , enlightening whole existence. Just at moment something happened with enlightenment of moonlight and vibration of cold breeze ..in the feeling of heart where mind had again traveled in reverse direction of time...reminding some eyes..and few drops dropped on the floor touching the feet of Mother earth....!!!

Friday, December 14, 2012

India:-Osho

India is not just geography or history. It is not
only a nation, a country, a mere piece of land. It
is something more: it is a metaphor, poetry,
something invisible but very tangible. It is
vibrating with certain energy fields which no
other country can claim.
For almost ten thousand years, thousands of
people have reached to the ultimate explosion of
consciousness. Their vibration is still alive, their
impact is in the very air; you just need a certain
perceptivity, a certain capacity to receive the
invisible that surrounds this strange land.
It is strange because it has renounced everything
for a single search, the search for the truth. It has
not produced great philosophers - you will be
surprised to know it - no Plato, no Aristotle, no
Thomas Aquinas, no Kant, no Hegel, no Bradley,
no Bertrand Russell. The whole history of India
has not produced a single philosopher - and they
have been searching for truth!
Certainly their search was very different from
the search that has been done in other countries.
In other countries people were thinking about
truth; in India, people were not thinking about
truth - because how can you think about truth?
Either you know it, or you don't; thinking is
impossible, philosophy is impossible. It is
absolutely an absurd and futile exercise. It is just
like a blind man thinking about light - what can
he think? He may be a great genius, may be a
great logician - it is not going to help. Neither
logic is needed nor genius is needed; what is
needed is eyes to see.
Light can be seen but cannot be thought. Truth
can be seen, but cannot be thought; hence we
don't have a parallel word in India for
`philosophy'. The search for truth we call
darshan, and darshan means seeing.
Philosophy means thinking, and thinking is
circular - about and about, it never reaches to the
point of experiencing.
India is the only land in the whole world,
strangely, which has devoted all its talents in a
concentrated effort to see the truth and to be the
truth.

You cannot find a great scientist in the whole
history of India. It is not that there were not
talented people, it is not that there were not
geniuses. Mathematics was founded in India, but
it did not produce Albert Einstein. The whole
country, in a miraculous way, was not interested
in any objective research. To know the other has
not been the goal here, but to know oneself.
For ten thousand years millions of people
persistently making a single effort, sacrificing
everything for it - science, technological
development, riches - accepting poverty,
sickness, disease, death, but not dropping the
search at any cost... it has created a certain
noosphere, a certain ocean of vibrations around
you.
If you come here with a little bit of a meditative
mind, you will come in contact with it. If you
come here just as a tourist, you will miss it. You
will see the ruins, the palaces, the Taj Mahal, the
temples, Khajuraho, the Himalayas, but you will
not see India - you will have passed through
India without meeting it. It was everywhere, but
you were not sensitive, you were not receptive.
You will have come here to see something which
is not truly India but only its skeleton - not its
soul. And you will have photographs of its
skeleton and you will make albums of its
skeleton, and you will think that you have been
to India and you know India, and you are simply
deceiving yourself.
There is a spiritual part. Your cameras cannot
photograph it; your training, your education
cannot capture it.
You can go to any country, and you are perfectly
capable of meeting the people, the country, its
history, its past - in Germany, in Italy, in France,
in England. But you cannot do the same as far as
India is concerned. If you try to categorize it
with other countries, you have already missed
the point, because those countries don't have
that spiritual aura. They have not produced a
Gautam Buddha, a Mahaviraa, a Neminatha, an
Adinatha. They have not produced a Kabir, a
Farid, a Dadu. They have produced scientists,
they have produced poets, they have produced
great artists, they have produced painters, they
have produced all kinds of talented people. But
the mystic is India's monopoly; at least up to
now it has been so.

And the mystic is a totally different kind of
human being. He's not simply a genius, he is not
simply a great painter or a great poet - he is a
vehicle of the divine, a provocation, an invitation
for the divine. He opens the doors for the divine
to come in. And for thousands of years, millions
of people have opened the doors for the divine
to fill the atmosphere of this country. To me, that
atmosphere is the REAL India. But to know it,
you will have to be in a certain state of mind.
When you are meditating, trying to be silent,
you are allowing the real India to come in
contact with you. Yes, you are right; the way you
can find truth in this poor country you cannot
find anywhere else. It is utterly poor, and yet
spiritually it has such a rich heritage that if you
can open your eyes and see that heritage you
will be surprised. Perhaps this is the only
country which has been deeply concerned with
the evolution of consciousness and nothing else.
Every other country has been concerned with a
thousand other things. But this country has been
one-pointed, a single goal: how human
consciousness can be evolved to a point where it
meets with the divine; how to bring the human
and the divine closer.
And it is not a question of one person but
millions of people; not a question of a day or a
month or a year, but thousands of years.
Naturally, it has created a tremendous energy
field around the country. It is all over the place,
you just have to be ready.
It is not coincidental that whenever anybody is
thirsty for truth, suddenly he has become
interested in India, suddenly he has started
moving towards the East. And it is not only
today, it is as old as there are records.
Pythagoras, twenty-five centuries ago, came to
India in search of truth. Jesus Christ came to
India….
…And down the centuries, seekers have been
coming to this land from all over the world. The
country is poor, the country has nothing to offer,
but to those who are sensitive it is the richest
place on the earth. But the richness is of the
inner. This poor country can give you the
greatest treasure that is possible for human
beings.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Long Time !!!

Hi Life,

The day I born when I met You , I avoided as I was scared of the attachments resulting in pain. But I waited and at end got convinced that you will be always with me and neglected the end. The end which is bound to happen. I feel like I am standing on the edge of end now..and your memories that I passed on the time still travelling with me. Can you remember the day It begin I had told you, I don't want to attach and you replied in your beauty and convinced me it never ends, Love never ends, Life never ends. I wanted to hold the time more stronger as stronger as my soul could permit, but the sand of time just kept on falling from the grip and I could not do anything except just watching on those fallen sand..which are now crystallized in the form of memory somewhere inside me.
Yes I have many questions to you thousands and millions and they prove me helpless, something like you want to do  but can not and I see it I can not, but my urge was not to touch the sky. I just wanted to touch the life ..just to hold you life. Whenever the morning dew drops  in orange sunlight of winter I remember you and at evening , I feel the separation of life from my soul. I wish it was like before but time does't allow it. Hey my life will I get you again..they say it's a circle , so I am waiting for that point of circle where I will be again near to you. And will pray that the life starts with my life. I am in bardo in small light of thoughts surrounded by vast darkness. I can't complain you for that, cause I don't know what is in your mind. But I still Love you life. You showed me the brightest moment existence can have..You showed me light although it's dark now..although darkness is now painful cause I have experienced light. Yes It's painful like darkness is ready to inhale my soul or more, but I am still Thankful to you cause I am not ignorant now. Even your one  glimpse enlightened my heart.
I know I am still connected with you as there is no way of disconnection. But I Miss You and still greedy to have more glimpses of you, more brighter glimpses like thunders, or extremely desirably greedy like you shower on me like sunlight..brightest and stable for always. Can't you come back again? I know that could be against law of nature ..if we have life ..we do need to face fate of death. But they also say there is also something beyond time. Will you meet me beyond time? I am ready to wait and I am. I don't know which parts in time you liked or not. But can I say Please...I don't know what should I do ..but you can understand it's like a person desiring for life while being on death bed.
I don't see any way..I have tried and each time I get more tired. Now I just want to lay in your arms closing my eyes and feeling the peace of your bliss. I want to say more...much more that is not describable in words. But still from the broken heart from the greedy mind from the concious feeling of oneness I want to tell you again..I know life comes and goes ..and your going can force me in darkness..but not more than that..even in that darkness I say you that I said in your light ..You can go far..I just remain at same point..I can say same ..cause I feel same...that I Love You as I did at beggining so do I do at fate and will continue. Might be cause nature of consciousness is same.

Yours,
Conciousness
gwgw

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

But yeh..You feel it..when you are alone...you can sense both the downward moving loneliness as well the upward moving strength..somewhere flowing in both directions in your spinal bone. And complete existence is playing and just running on the dimenstion of time..the changes we can feel in emotions..different emotions just showing us the change of points of time.
When you feel to cry , when you want to cry for someone..and when you feel defeated..with not anymore hope...a strange should happen. Just pray that beyond time ..you get yourself..and that should happen...!!!

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Curse...!!!! Happened ..Happening ...Must not Happen Again..!!!

And that 8 year old child was just looking straight his back was touching one corner of wall. His eyes was dried up  after crying and his face was not able to show any emotion at all. Blood was still clotting in his forearm and nose was bleeding. Laying at one side his legs were straight..looks like he was deciding where to go first at left or right in front of himself. Which body needs him most, which body needs his support most. Body of his father who was socially Muslim or body of his Mom who was socially Hindu..!!!
When eyes can not see and ears refuse to listen anything and when one can even not feel sensation on his skin.
8 years is less to grow for getting development ..but one instace one event made him grew. Just 1 hour before he was holding his father's hand and was looking at his Mother. He was just a kid then now he grew. He grew with sorrows in his eyes , he grew with a vision of burden , he grew with helplessnes in his heart.
And where should he try for support? And to whom? To them who are shouting name of Allah and destroying the peace? or to them who who are shouting name of Ram and burning all the streets.
How will that kid come out ? How will he shout for help? And to whom..? Killers of his life?
Wounded and half dead kid starts thinking and is lost in thoughts ..half fainted ..no hope..no love..no life.
Creator created and now we are destroying..let's finish it absalutely..let's proof He was wrong. Cause he was. He did a mistake cause he used different names or he himself was confused that what is he.

Kid wants to stand..thinking in his mind.." lets make this world more beautiful ..and why not ...these all are trying to make it..red is beautiful color let's make everything red. Lets give everyone peace..showing them way of death". " Cause it's dead world it has died already..long before... only dead can love dead and being a part of this dead world ..it needs contribution..it needs blood ..it needs death". Why not to show the creator that ..yes it was his mistake ..let us make him realize that he did the last mistake and noone else did any mistake after.

Suddenly he looked outside cause of shouting ..a young man cut hands of an 50 years old man. He got thrilled his heart stopped for a moment and then he smiled..he smiled looking above ..now how will he pray you. he became sad at other moment whispering " now how will he hold his stick to walk". Time stopped at that moment for him although he wished that time runs very fast. Mind was not able to understand " what is happening and why ". " Why the cheated me...why teach of love and he can see that nowhere instead they even destroyed and killed the source of love" he again looked at the body of man which was lying at certain distance..this time he wanted to shout and cry..but could't make it he was numb..his body now was showing no movement..just his eyes were blinking.

"What God is I even don't know that..does he likes war?" he again lost in thoughts " Does He hates love  and hence they each hate other. Does he creates us..so that we can destroy ..he says other is devil and satan ..are we strong to fight against devil? If Yes..then why He says He is fighting against devil..if we are then where from He comes. Did't He tell these outsiders ..I am in all ..then why they are killing his part, if they love Him? Did't he tell them everything is his? Then why they are destroying his things? Is't it sin now.destroying his creation? Yeh..must be like this only ..it's not sin.cause they say ..they are killing sinners. Then what judgement will God do at judgment day or after death at judgement? Is't people themself are able to judge sins ..cause they are ..they are judging and they are punishing.I don't think one is judged two times for same sin. Can't we leave judgement onto Himself?"

Lost in himself he was looking outside at running crowd ...then looking in front of two bodies..he wanted to shout for help..but was also scared what if they hear him...sun was setting..evening was ready to hold light in it's arms...sunset was looking more red this day...voices were silent..he was scared now ..and wanted to shout ..he tried to shout for help..he tried to shout and suddenly ..heavier noise of bang thundered all dimentions..his heart which was already weaker n..now rejected to fight this shock..in a moment his eyelids stoped blinking..his hand fell on ground..his ears were no more able to detect any sound...still he was able to see..a small white light going far and more far from him ..there were no more thoughts ..there was no regret..there were no questions...no human..no God...a darkness and in next moment he drown in it.
Ceiling fan was still rotating..throwing wind below..sparrow which was sitting on roof ..now flew to return back to it's nest ...in dim light of evening.



Sunday, July 22, 2012

Misterious Mist

Jaden was approaching his hostel room with a new thought with hope to live with different energy surrounding his soft skin. Magical music once again was reaching his ear. Yes that's what they call it " Magical Music". While passing through the corridor for hostel one can easily hear that soft music, every night coming from Room No. 135. Room No.135 is also famous among students there, for that mystical music as well as it's architecture. Room# 135 is actually not just a room but a big hall situated at the other corner of campus.
Generally students are not allowed to go there as the back wall of room touches the dense forest and is considered insecure. Hence is also separated from a 6 fee tall wall and watchman keeps their eyes every time, so that nothing unexpected happens and no one tries to go there.Just very senior professors can go there including Robert Smithson. A six feet tall, with broad chest and large glittering eyes behind spectacles, 45 years old head of department of music. Mr Smithson is known among students for his  soft speaking and scientific way of teaching, that makes students very easy to understand , typical topics.He is respected much among his colleagues for his incredible achievements that he made for research in music and accoustic science. Music is just not entertainment for him, it's completely science. According to him " music is still undeveloped science which can result int miracles".
Apart from few people no one else is allowed to go there.Few students also consider that room as haunted or suspicious , for others it's like abandoned room that they think is no more used. Different people has different perception. But one thing is sure that music makes the hall special. Some also think that music comes from forest but not hall.
Jaden was now more near to his hostel entry gate listening to the music and today the music was also supporting his loneliness.It felt to him like he is standing at a place surrounded by whole universe and there is nothing no living creature, no stars in sky, no source of light and he is just one ..alone in whole creation. A pair of tear fell on ground from his eyes and subconsciously his lips moved making a murmuring , vibrating sound making the name" Sofiee...". And suddenly her name was lost and became a part of the mysterious music.
Remembering the dream that he had at seabeach h wiped his eyes and entered his hostel room#45.It was late around 11'o clock at his watch. He laid at the soft comfy bed with blue pillow, closing his eyes hoping for a new day a new sun praying for more sunlight in his life which can show him that, he  wants to see now.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Misterious Mist

Blue ocean was crying with the blowing wind making a shivering sound in that dark night. Existence was dark ..enough to inhale all the lights. There was no sign of life on the beach of dark blue ocean...surrounding was just representing the ultimate death of living cosmos. At the seashore..he was sitting ..peacefully lowering his head down..with a pair of tears in his eyes..lost in memories of past..and struggling with time, to force direction of consciousness in opposite to time.Ohh he was peaceful..but you know "peace can be overwhelming, as well as it can suck life out of blood". The same was Jaden, slow rain drop was falling on his arm and his head trying to erase his tear from his eyes providing a chillness in his body..to make him shiver..but rain..oh rain can not understand that his heart and soul is already shivering cause of chillness that he got inside.
Jaden started looking at ocean and it seemed to him , ocean wants to hold him ..and cuddle in it's arm to provide real peace to his child..ocean might be struggling to touch forehead of jaden and hence it's waves were flowing longer but were just able to touch his feet. But you know nature can feel and oceans , rivers , wind they also cry when they  look a human crying..it feels like they just want to see a human smiling in and enjoying blisfulnes..cause nature is utmost strong..jaden is also his creation ..most beautiful creation that has been made ..and thus the wind was blowing harder as if wind got challenged cause his creation was sitting on it's earth's womb with crying tears in his eyes.
Suggenly a spark of thunder thundered in sky..directing jaden's mind in past ..withing a second it was dark again..more darker than before and jaden was lost in memory...with tearing eyes he was smiling..as if he had crossed all the barrier of time.." Jaden .. Jaden" " what happened love" Jaden asked Sofie. She looked at Jaden with her brown eyes with large sharp eyebrow looking mysterious above shining eyes. In black dress she was looking like princess of creator. She replied smiling and came near to Jaden, holding his hand provinding warmth to his fingers and melting the touch of her hand in his with loving heart.

It was Monday morning in the month of December cold wind was blowing , and Jaden was standing in the garden of his college campus. It was not normal college..a mystery college surrounded by mountain at one end  and ocean at opposite.Architecture of campus is unique in world " the mystery multiversity "   with large red beatiful bulding standing between it's famous garden " garden of angels " at east side and dense forest at west end. Student start their daily routine by running , meditating in first sunlight with rising of sun from ocean.
In evening very selected senior student are permitted to visit dense forest..visiting dense forest there is wish of every student..2000 students at campus they know it's really hard to achieve a level where they would be allowed to visit forest. Only most talented students can reach upto that level , to experiment advanced studies  by directly experimenting into hidden mystery of forest. Still multiversity is unknown to world and has been kept unknown cause of their powerful knowledge.

At center of park Jaden was looking at the enter gate..so that he can see sofie sofie entering the park to join him. In blue dress ..she entered the gate .. and jaden started walking towards gate ..last 2 years he has been doing same , distance was large still as it was a large park, suddenly Jaden stopped as sofie was going in other direction..he thought she has something to do at college building hence she is going..Sofie shaked her hand with Chris and hugged him without looking anywhere and then went out from other gate.

Suddenly another thunder enlightened womb of earth and Jaden came back from this subconscious dream holding more tears in his eyes..that was the last time he met sofie..and no one knows where is she now. With more tears in eyes, wind was blowing more stronger, struggling to provide peace to his son.
It was more darker now inside and outside of Jaden , His body started becoming numb with heavy heart and pinching pain in soul ..Jaden started felling on the ground and it was the time when ocean was really able to touch forehead of his son with other wave ocean hugged Jaden.

Suddenly, a voice appeared in Jaden'e eyes a sound from sky...Jaden..Jaden..as if guardian angel was thundering all directions with her voice..." my son ..I can feel the pain that you are going through..it hurts me also when it hurts you...can't you see this ocean .this wind this earth..struggling to comfort you" ohh did't you feel these are my arms and hands...and can't you feel yourself as part of me...your body and soul is made up of soil..this wind always blows inside you whever you breath..same ocean is running inside your body...can't you feel yourself as part of these as you are made from these, you live cause of these and you again meet these all at end...you are my son your nature is blissfulness..." I will destroy all the reasons which ever can even try to hurt my most beautiful son" it hurts me when you you feel pain you are my son as well as my my own existence extended far more. " why do you feel yourself alone in darkness"..." ohhh look inside you and i am flowing in every cell of your body it's me only that you breath..it's me only that you eat..it's me only that you search in love..always inside most near to you.. knocking door of your conscious" . " Hold my hand and can't you feel i am also incomplete without you..as you are without me?"

" I am always with you..as I was always and its my destiny to be with you always." Why are you hurting me by hurting yourself...so listen I am going to tell you most famous secrets of existence

It was neither me nor you nor anything before beginning...it was oneness..just one blissfulness ..peace.
Suddenly desire came...and with desire that oneness started breaking ..n started getting divided in two..three and then many..with all divisions ..there was excitement..and we all started making different identities..and hence ego started appearing in our nature. " As you can see you can not exist without sea, wind, earth..similarly they can not exist without you ..cause you are pure form of consciousness . I realized and division stopped..but part that got scattered ..I am still waiting for them to get back..ohh it's so easy..but when i look above from earth .i find it so difficult for them to quit ego, desires and to melt again in oneness.
"Jaden you are as strong as whole universe is...no desire no feeling can touch you..cause that is not your nature ..that is your earning..open the fist...and see you have all wonders in you..and in every wonder you will find yourself.."being a part of me ..can't you feel you are strength in stronger...beauty in beautiful..light in sun..mass in earth" If i am spreaded everywhere..so you are..you are my son..but can't you see you are also me myself"

" Wake up look at the sky..I will hold your hand always and I never left your hand too..you have meaning purpose ..get up and as I am helping you help every particle to grow..collect them back.." Life is accident ..but is also opportunity..if you think you have lost something very precious than you are wrong..you can never loose cause you can even never gain a single thing that you never had. I will be guide for you beyond time ...look ahead and it's light everywhere waiting for you..a transmuted life is waiting near for you..with me you will find everything easy. And try to wipe out your tear..it may take time ..depending upon how much fast and how much intense you can feel me. I am your mother your guardian angel ..your undivided portion ." Jadedn wake up ....wake up.........

With next stream of ocean ..Jaden opened his eyes....he saw ocean wave going towards ocean..as if he was cuddled by ocean for longer time. He felt more energy..a strength ..to stand on his legs..with a power to fight against thougts which were pinching his soul. Standing on his legs..he looked as powerful as sky itself it. He faced towards red building of his college and started walking towards his hostel bulding at north south of building.


Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Scene 2

Finally Jaden reached that crossway. There were two large banyan tree on the crossway. He stoped there lost in thoughts directing his mind into past. He can still see Jaden and Sofie written on one of the banyan tree. Jden's eyes became numb and a pair drop of tear fell on his nose from his eye. He was stuck and his whole body was numb as if he want to fight against time. He wented to go more close to that tree in subconsious hope that he still can feel warmth of her in this cold blowing wind. His memory streched his awareness 2 years back..
"Look at this huge tree, Jaden"
"What is special in this, said Jaden" Looking into sofie's brown eyes.
She replied "It's so old scary and beautiful at the same time, I think it has been standing here for atleast 120 years,It would have seen so many things so many lifes,many misterious would be hidden in it".
Jaden noded his head looking into sofie's eyes.
He took a sharp stone and forced on bankyan truck wirting sofie and then jaden like a teenager boy who wants to see himself with the girl he likes at every places and at every time. And it was perfect afterall they had just finished their graduation a year back.
Sofie came near to him speechless and held his hand.
Janet was speechless too looking in her eyes as if they both were communicating through eyelids. Janet moved two steps ahead in response Sofie moved back as if she was not sure. Further there was no place to move back more as she her back was touching trunk of tree, Janet moved closer his face was so close to her that he could feel warmth of her breath. He was holding her palms gently and softer. Time had stopped for them as if they were cut of all other senses and lost in the moment. Looking in sofie's eyes who just closed Janet moved his lips more near to her.
Suddenly noise chirping of birds flying at a distance entered his ears pulling attension of his mind to present.
He wiped out his tears turned right to follow the crossway road as if there is much more distance he has to follow.

Friday, October 28, 2011

"Scene 1."

And he was walking across that dark valley. Fresh cold winter breeze was enough to to make his skin cold giving a sensation of chillness in mind.
Lost in thousands of thoughts He was looking at the uphill of mountain densed by forest. His face was shining with the white moonlight getting reflected from his face. Wearing faded jeans with blue shirt he looked like a part of sky is walking on the earth. With his slim and tall body he was reaching towards the cross way of the road which was linked with other road going to the uphills.His sharp lips were silent and above his pointed nose there was a strange expression in his big eyes. Like the eyes are lost somehwre and helping the mind to understand something.
In that silent valley of rare populated area Jaiden was moving to the crossway with large steps but slow speed.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Internal Carasoul....!!!

So yes I am centered at the focus of thoughts,
And the awareness is oscillating to and fro on the dimension of time,
Oscillating and touching thousands of thoughts in both directions,
Peace is just an imagination or a mirage illusion.

Illusion of life illusion of reality,
Illusion of liberation of soul,
Wisdom seems like taking last breath,
And breath forcing itself to enter into body of wisdom.

No lightness, no darkness just stillness,
Stillness of eternity,
Surrounded and rotated and forced by thoughts,
Thoughts of compulsion, of being betrayed.

Hardness with loose functioning of mind,
Limited into boundaries of human capacity,
Forcing myself to the extreme of self will,
Leaving and surrendering to existence.

Surrendering the life, the emotions and struggles,
So hold my Hand ohh..existence..and fulfill your desire,
As everything is still and calm into you,
Circle never rotates for you..!!!

Let there be Peace......!!!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Love Letter- Hey Love

Hey Love,

I am feeling glimpses of beauty and happiness of eternity while writing to you.
Don't know when were we separated may be at the begging of time. But I can still feel the the separation flowing through aura of conciousness. And even knowing that the separation is just illusion and in depth we are still connected. I can just feel that separation through the emptiness wavering inside
my soul. But still I have smile on my lips ..the eternal me still can feel the existence of your soul sear me. May that is why, on physical level I have desire
a cosmic desire to get merged with you and get one or complete or as it was just oneness.
Oh Love..is it me or you all over spreaded in all dimensions which I can image and which I can imagine not. I can feel the movment of our conciousness flowing on the river of time together. And it's so close that sometimes I even have dout that is there just me.
And I am assure that the time will also rich a point where once again all will get united I will again become a part of Your existence or saying a part could be wrong again oneness would be riched. It's misterious that sometimes I am saying I am separate and sometimes oneness. May be it's cause of something unknown which unknown as thoughts,mind, or few impurities in conciousnes or somewhere in existence. And I even know that there is no impurity cause there is no place to be how could is it possible since you are spreaded everywhere in this vast cosmos.
And it's a long time to see you a long journey of pain, greed, happiness, sadness, tears of happiness, tears of sadness, getting and feeling glimpses of your existence in moments , feeling like spring brigde, feeling like intense sunlight in winter. Those moments explain to myself I am still connected with you in deeper part of existence. And provides me warm sensation of peace of blissfulness.
I am sorry for the mistakes that I did knowingly and unknowingly. Mistake like
you are you are so shining and in attraction I said you that I want you and that also seems ugly to me is't that enslaving the beauty and insulting it. But on the other hand I even knew you can't be enslaved as it's your aura only making me free providing me liberty.
There are so many things to say again an attempt to capture unexplanable thing in the boundary of words.I want to say I love you and together I also don't like that sentence cause it uses " YOU" and using you for you again gives me a feeling of separation. And I have felt in glimpses it's neither you nor me it's just oneness. No separation no divition just unification or just an exitential truth of oneness. Miss you cause there is illusion of separation. Love You cause there is to be unification.
With lots of love. In Loveliness.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Thought.....2

Have you felt the storm,
starting from body entering to soul,
surronded in mist of thoughts,
thoughts loving and reppeling the storms

One side wants to hold
Other side struggling to push
A thought of mistry,
Streching the soul, pulling the conciousness.

A thought of beauty
Have you thought of desire to hold beauty,
Cause just by holding it,
Beauty is lost,ruined enslaved.

A thought to become master,
which at end results in slave,
A thought to win
Without knowing that it's lost the momet you desired to win.

Thought itself lost in struggle,
Weekening the soul and strengthing the mind,
Creating a division in one entity
Ruling the kingdom of division

But the thought in a direction,
Even after streching the eternity,
Saving the freedom,
Saving the beauty..!!!

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Just as it is

And the showering of pain in mind,
With thunders of desires,
Wheeling the subconsciousness
And reflecting the eternity inside soul..

Darkness surrounding the eyes,
Narrowing the focus in a thin line,
Oh at the moment mind sees,
merging of all dimensions in one.

Desires forcing in one direction,
At the other mind is opposing them,
Division of mind in different parts
They are integrating the darkness..

Darkness which is ultimate
which ever was and will be
so near to eyes,
Horrifying and thundering the soul

Let me wake up from this dream,
to feel the light on my skin,
And let me merge my consciousnesses,
In the depth of your soul to feel to free me from myself...!!!

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Loosing Pain..!!

A thunder crawling in the body,
Passing by the nerves of mind,
Giving a fine sensation of pain,
Spreading coldness to the heart.

Light which was friend of me
Now seems like getting merged with darkness,
Ears are thirsty to hear a voice
But it’s just shouting of silence.

A feel entering in my nerve,
Steadily slowly steadily slowly,
Making my body numb,
Lossing the sensation of my senses.

Time between two Rings..!!

There was a small break between two rings love
I saw the time freezed in that time,
Heart beat stoped and breath freezed,
Stillness entered in life and there was exitment a little happines of hope.

I saw the mind focused on one point,
At that time the thoughts got focused at one place,
I was just ready to hear the voice and reply,
Next moment I got other ring with same waiting

I love that silence between 2 rings,
That brings hope to focus on your voice
Oh the time betwen those rings,
It's like the soul is going to meet God.

It's like conciousness going to get mergd with cosmic conciousnes,
Leaving every sphere and aspect of cosmos,
Meeting the unsepared part again,
In joy,peace ,silence and blissfulnes.

The small moment sometimes show us the reality,
Reality that was ever and will be,
A pain of division and a desire of multiplication and merging
Oh that small moment sometimes shows whole cosmos.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Thougts

When my eyes are closed,
They are fighting with me,
My thoughs have become my enemy.

Stop banging my mind,
with the sweetness of memory,
The lovely thouhts the ugly thougts,
I am tired,betrayed..let me be in peace.

I want to sleep,
Don't shout in my mind,
My nerves are week now,
My heart is evacuate.

Tell me a way to make things fine,
Help me give me your hand and raise me,
I am falling deeper and deeper in conciousnes,
Damn these thouts are shouting and crying, disturbing.

Tell me the mistake,
and show me atleast one way to hear your heart,
Treat me like human with heart and soul,
Send peace for me..i am scared thouts are killing me.

Help me fighting alone with them,
Stand near lets defeat it,
Do something they are becoming tumour in brain,
Smile and show me before they win.

You are the winner,
Don't let me loose too,
I can't see direction to walk,
thots oh..they are crawling in body.

From mind to feet,
They are hitting heart,
Banging my soul,
Sqeezing my peace.

Separating me fro myself,
In two three or hundread,
Is it the end or begenning,
Of a life without light.

If it's a curse by you,
I do accept this too,
Cause it's yours,
Atleast smile now for acceptence.


Thougts,thougs,thougts..killing me every moment...!!

Tears..!!

Fallen into ocean of tears,
Can You hold me and support,
to raise and give strength to soul,
Can You again touch my lips to shine the eyes.

The world is running by me faster,
And my body is numb at the centre,
Focused on the sky,
like searching your image on clouds.

Show me again the gentle smile on your face,
and you had promise never to cry,
so smile for the moments we had,
when the soul was more stronger the body.

always come in my dreams...!!

Darknes..!!

Night horrorfull night,
Ready to eat all the light,
So much dark inside and outside,
It's just a life without light..

Where are the eyes now,
to show the light to my eyes,
where is that touch,
to give warmth to my skin

All the stars and sun disappeared with you,
The concoisness inside me,
Seems like disappearing,
Focused on one point.

Small light surounded by vast dakness,
It's so lonely night,
Look into my soul,
It's so dark now.

Don't call me in the loneliness of night,
memory of your voice makes me cry,
I am ready to burn my heart,
scared even that will not provide light.

With vibrating lips and raining eyes....!!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Wish you were here..

And wish You were here
In the darkness of night
In the brightness of light
Wish You were here

In valley between moutains
with the glitter of moonligh
with the cold wind touching the skin
and the moon shying looking into your eyes

In great silence of eternity
when the soul looking for it's destiny
In th darkness of sound
wish you were here..
to whisper in my ears..

In the coldness where lips are vibrating
and hands are numb
and the life seems like death
wish you were there
to hold the hand and give warmth

In deep darkness of dream
where light never enters
where it's just shadow of darkness,
wish you were there
to show me light from your eyes.

There is no sense of smell
like nature stoped creating smell
just breath but no smell
wish you were there
to kiss my lips n give the fragrance of your breath

wish you were here
where the mind stop thinkin
and no imagination works
and life is running meaningless
to show me beauty of your face
wish you were there

And now I am closing my eyes
in deep silence
with the glimpse of coldness over my skin
ohh..you are here..
a part of my eternity..
and it's shining like many sun.......................